Thank you so much everyone for the kind words and congratulations. It means so much to me, I can't tell you. I really don't know how I would have survived the last few months without you, and I'm so happy you're with me at the beginning of what I hope will be a long and safe journey.
Last night was thrilling and almost unreal. My husband and I were so happy, and we decided to call our families right away. My dad was so happily surprised, my mom practically hyperventilated, and my brother cried. I love my family. I also told a couple of close friends, who knew how long we'd been trying. It was lovely to hear them express unrestrained congratulations. I was already worried about something going wrong, but they weren't, and that was really nice. Felt like oxygen.
Telling this close circle did make me a little nervous. What if something happens now, I thought? It seems like tempting fate to be even that open about our good news. But today, I'm feeling pretty ecstatic. I know I need to be cautious, and as a committed member of the infertile blogosphere, I know only too well what can go wrong. But honestly, right now, anxiety is taking up a really small part of my head. Mostly I am relieved and full of joy. Real heart-bending joy.
I don't have another beta until Friday!! I can't believe they're waiting so long. So I can't really worry about the rate of increase until then, which means I'm gonna do my best to enjoy this week. I'm pregnant. I've never been able to say that before. I was starting to worry I never would. I'm just gonna enjoy saying that to myself for the next few days, and take it from there.
Holy shit indeed! Congrats!!!
When I'm dealing with the mix of joy of being pregnant and waiting for the other shoe to drop, I just try to take things in bite-sized chunks. It sounds like you've already adopted that philosophy. Wishing you the best!
Posted by: dish | December 13, 2004 at 10:31 AM
Holy shit yes!!!!!!
Yes, taking things a day at a time was all that kept me (marginally sane) in the first stages. Not sure what's doing it now...
But yes, yes, yes, yes!!!
Posted by: Menita | December 13, 2004 at 01:34 PM
I am thrilled for you. I think it is so important that you have shared this with your closest friends and family because your joy is real and happening now. It deserves to be celebrated. Congratulations and enjoy the week.
Posted by: Betty | December 13, 2004 at 07:33 PM
We enjoy saying it too. The lobster is pregnant !
Posted by: eM | December 13, 2004 at 09:30 PM